How do you stop, something from happening, when it is happening?? I’m already trying not to think about it, but why did I have to have that dream, its already hard as it is. I think its apparent that I’ve been doing wrong all the time, that all the things just leads to this, then it was a doomed journey from the start isn’t it? Its really depressing now, I don’t know this, don’t understand that, I really have to believe I’m stupid, foolish and naive all along. Mistakes after mistakes after mistakes. And its getting really hard, to keep pretending everything’s ok, keep that smile on my face, and to even focus well during Aik ido, the hardest part I guess would be not having someone to talk to, that’s why I’m blogging, maybe I will feel better after this. The feeling is like being very sick, then taking drugs every now and then to ease the pain, but ultimately, its killing me slowly…………………………………………….

Switch topics, I suddenly garnered a lot of interest for hairy pot ter!! After watching the show on tv, I found it really interesting. I remember watching the movies in the cinema and thinking they were bad. I think hairy pot ter isn’t for kids maybe?? Hahaha, cause the older I get the more engrossed I get in the story, still don’t really understand much of it but I really like the black wizard character, I used to think his name was Silvery Snake… haha. A very intriguing character, sometimes nice, bad, evil.. and emotions, he seldom show any, plus his wizard cloths are really nice!! Nicer than that Bubbledoor guy =P haha. That Snap e guy is really really cool, and maybe I find hairy pot ter interesting cos of him, should learn to be like him, no matter he’s a baddy or goody.

Now just hope after all this I still can pass my f t t!!

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