Ok birthday post, a lot of things to write, but I can’t possibly write all of them, gotta talk to people..

I just came home from supper with my Ar my friends, went to east coast.

Let’s start with Aik ido on Wednesday and Friday, Wednesday was significantly tougher than today’s, but I’m not complaining..I can’t ever complain about Aik ido cause to me its……………..
Gonna start with my S h o D a n training soon, guess that’s why I’m given some serious cardio workouts at Aik ido these few days =)

Next would be my F T T, failed, nothing to say about it, guess luck plays a part in passing, and I just didn’t have it today. Could have wished to pass my driving license fast, using my birthday wish, even with 3 wishes, the driving license wasn’t my priority. Although I have a couple of motivations to get my license, but I think nobody knows them??

Now for the long part, what I did on my birthday, today mood sky high, gonna write a lot
Woke up early, meeting (can’t write name) at 10, went to shower and prepare, then I received a call, and I admit I was pretty blur in the morning, thought wrong number but it was actually Mei, with her sis =) haha, they actually got up early to get a cake, deliver it to my house. I won’t lie, I was really moved, if I wasn’t blur I think I would tear. And they even got me a present!! A wallet, one with a design I really like =) lit the candles of my birthday cake, 22 small candles, not only once =P haha, made a couple of wishes, my 1st ever birthday I had 3 wishes =) ate a small bit of the cake, then had to set off already. Cabbed down to the e hub, bought tickets to ghosts of past girlfriends, watched the movie with her, had to pretend I haven’t watched it yet, but I did well. After that walked her all the way home, we didn’t take the route I intended, but we still did what I’ve really wanted to do, TALK!! Though not the stuff I wanted to talk about, but we had a really good conversation =) gave her the wind chimes, not sure she liked them.. After that went to meet aud rey and dap hne at whit e san ds, ate lunch at man hat ten, they gave me a card, and picked the bill, really nice gestures. Went back to e hub after that to watch man I lo ve you, nice movie with quite a lot of adult related humor. Went back home after that, ate dinner with my mom, and that’s basically my birthday =)

This part’s gonna be even longer, I’m gonna write what I felt
To me, the best part of my birthday, was in the morning, when Mei and her sis came over with the cake and present, but that was also the part that broke my heart for the entire day.. The gesture was the was the sweetest, in all my 22 years of living, to tell the truth, I can’t remember my birthdays, cause they weren’t important, nobody made them important, I only remember one, my 20th birthday, a facefull of cake, rolling outside the mr t station, truly memorable, now there’ll be 2 that I’ll never forget. But along with the flowers and rainbows that greeted me in the morning with them, I felt it rain inside me, my 1st thought was, “oh no, I won’t be able to spend enough time with them” after that came thoughts of whether the house is messy, or if there were any cockroaches around. But I was really really happy, and really really sad at the same time. I screwed up, on my birthday, and with the people that mean the most to me =( I’m quite a letdown.
Next was with (name I can’t write), man.. The cinema had this weird urine smell, like some kid was watching a really scary show.. But I endured! During the walk back to her home, the sun was out but it wasn’t really hot, but when we got to her house, I was perspiring, haha, but the talk was great, I didn’t think talking about the intended topic would’ve been good, considering the stress from school work she’s having now, I thought it wouldn’t help her at all, it’ll just pile up the pressure, so I skipped it, who knows when I’ll ever cover the topic with her.. I gave her something on my birthday =) special!
Then was lunch with aud rey and dap hne, the generation gap really shows, most of the time I’ll be oblivious to what they’re talking about, just do what I do, think and eat, haha. After watching I lo ve you man, I thought I was really like the male lead, I feel that my circle of friends isn’t the greatest, all my guy friends are just guy friends, I never had a buddy, but my best friends are the best in the world, but I know I can’t rely on them forever, can’t run to them whenever I’m sad all the time. Don’t get me wrong here, this is a very complicating topic, and I can’t write my thoughts well here yet, maybe I won’t be able to find someone to talk to, I’ll get really desperate and write it here someday..

Also, maybe only the closest people to me know this, I used to think that the person who cares for me the most will wish me a happy birthday the latest. Now I feel I’ve changed a lot, I no longer even remember why I think that, and I think very differently now. But this isn’t something I think I wanna share on this blog.

Ok, gotten kinda emo after all that, all these thoughts in just a day, am I someone who thinks a lot or am I someone who thinks a lot?? Haha. There’s actually much more, but I guess, maybe I’ll forget about them, talk about them to someone or get tired of waiting and just write here. I’m really starting to think that I’m faulty product..

Gonna end here, hit over a thousand words, aud rey confirm won’t read..haha. IMPORTANT!! In no way am I offending anyone with what I write, I just needed to take a couple of things out of me.

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