I‘VE GOT SOMETHING I WANNA SAY TO SOMEONE!!!

But.....

Trying not to think about, am I making myself forget about this, am I trying to run from it, am I just delaying or maybe I just can't be bothered to do anything?? So many things you all can say about me, but I'm not any of that, I'm just, myself, and this is me, always doing the wrong things at the wrong time, I'm usually the architect of my own failure, am I really a loser in romance, hopeless in love?? Or is it just something I say to hide what I simply have no courage to do?? I keep saying I wanna do this, but why have I not done this till now?? This is driving me crazy, not because its a bad thing, its just my incapability of doing things =(

So sorry, anyhow write wan, that's what happens when I have no one to talk to. Wait, if I say something that offends anyone in anyway, I apologize, cos I'm not really stable right now.

Forgot what I wanted to write, or what happened this week..Oh! I got my first promotion this week, I'm not a Lan ce Corpo ral. Extra $20 to my monthly pay, sounds good eh, but its really pathetic, I'm now earning $550+ a month. Thursday was Labour Day was it?? So it should mean FREE FROM LABOUR!! But I got duty..think its because I got promoted I had to do the duty...so I didn't get to go home like everyone else, until Friday morning. Really not worth cos I'm arm skote man as well, so I had to stay longer to do extra stuff. But actually it was easy, holiday the camp not much people ma, so slacked in the office almost the entire day. In the morning!! Had to do the flag raising, pull the flag, finish already, must step back and salute to it, as I salute, I realized I had actually place the flag upside down!! Lucky that day not much people around, and no one realized it, so marched away, when no one was looking, faster run back, lower it, reversed it, and raised it up again. Hahaha

Oh ya, Ironman open le, come come book me k =) Don't know if I should ask her not??

Today went to eat buffet, ate quite alot, then there was this cheese thing, those cheese that are really expensive and big, like those round ones and those Pizza shape ones, then my dad took one whole piece, wanted to tabao home, hahaha, then the waitress came to pour water and saw it, hahaha, she kena shock, but in the end we returned it cos cannot fit into my mom's bag, haha, I think she got another shock, think we finished it.

Going to Sen tosa tomorrow morning, for some ar my thing then book in in the evening, so boring, this "holiday" didn't feel like a holiday at all =(

Was chatting with Mel the other day, told her I have a holiday this weekend, a long one, then she said she also has one, from May to august.......suddenly my long holiday didn't seem so long. And when she spoke about golf and tennis, I remembered I need to get some golf and tennis balls. Haha, its not weird really, ask me why and I'll tell you ;P who got lobang help me get k!

This is what I'm feeling now:



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/|\ (human in a very high position)
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/|\ (me, not up to THAT level)
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Can you all understand?? Or is it I'm the one who doesn't understand??